I am procrastinating. I need to get that under control. Maybe this isn't the best place to talk about this. Rather, this isn't the right time.
I am doing things that need to be done: I am starting to craft a budget to go back to school, I'm making a list of projects that need to be completed to move, I'm doing laundry and contemplating leaving the computer for a bit to get a workout in. But I'm not doing what I should be doing, what currently tops the priority chart. Namely, I am not writing my letter of intent for my grad application.
I find this type of writing incredibly daunting. I don't like to write to praise myself. I sort of find talking about why I want things difficult. This is probably especially difficult since it was such a last minute decision on my part. I had been mulling it over but I realize that I haven't really thought about it.
I need help! I don't really know who to ask. Perhaps I just need to really muscle through it. Turn off my internet for a while and just write it.
I need to learn from this experience. I need lead time. I don't work well under pressure. At least, I distract myself constantly when under pressure. I will learn this lesson. I will take this lesson to grad school and try to never get in this spot with assignments.